Why do you do what you do? That's kind of the big question when it comes to being passionate about something. And it's something that I've been thinking about lately so I thought I'd share it with all of you!
The simple answer might be, "It's a lot of fun." Sure, this may be a reason, but the truth of the matter is so much deeper than this. Yeah, I have an amazingly fun time with what I do, but what makes it so fun? What makes filming, directing, or acting so incredibly enjoyable? And I've done a lot of thinking about this and why I love filmmaking so much. When I first got started I didn't really know the reason, I just thought it was fun. I enjoyed getting together with my friends and making short little videos that were funny to us, and I liked seeing people laugh at our work. And as I grew more as a filmmaker, I began to realize why I love this so much. And then I got into the business side of things, which is where things became more blurred for me. Don't get me wrong, I love my job, but initially I didn't.
You see, when I first started making money off my filming, I didn't know why I was doing what I was doing. I didn't have a clear understanding of what this meant to me, so I began to lose sight of why I loved what I did so much, and I became mainly focused on making money. I had a talent in my town that no one else had, and I was making money off of it.. what's not to love about that, right? And as I did more projects for businesses, I began to enjoy making videos less and less. And prior to this I was like, "Yeah, I'm going to go to film school, get connected with people, land an awesome job, and have the best time making films!" And after I started making videos for businesses, my thought process became, "Man, what am I thinking? This is boring and hard and not something I'd want to do all the time! Plus, it's super hard to get a job and the pay isn't the best. Maybe this will just be a hobby and it was never a passion." So I decided that I was going to go to school for science– ha! And I thought making films was boring. I can't imagine how boring being a scientist would be, but to each his own.
It wasn't until a little over half way through senior year in high school that I realized why I do what I do, and I realized that filmmaking really is my passion. I filmed my first wedding in January for some friends of mine, and that's when I realized why I love this so much. When I released their Highlight Video on Facebook, the comments started to flood in. People were saying they started crying during the video, that they loved it and that is was so fun. And the couple loved it just as much. And it was from this that I found the answer. I love what I do because of the people and seeing someone light up because of my videos. When people laugh and tell me how hilarious my video was or hearing that a video made them cry because it was so beautiful, these reactions– these genuine emotions– bring so much satisfaction that money couldn't bring. And I guess I kind of knew the reason in the back of my head, but I lost sight of it.
I think that it's really important to know why you know what you are doing so that you have a purpose. When my main purpose of creating videos was to make money, it wasn't enjoyable. But when I realized why I was doing what I was doing, it's made all the difference. Now I go into projects with the mentality of wanting to make something amazing that brings a smile to someones face and moves them in some way, rather than making money. Sure, there are times when things are stressful, and long, and tedious, and there are times when I don't want to work on a video because it's a struggle. But that's with everything in life. There's always going to be those times when things are like this. But when you know why you do what you do– the true reason– that's what makes it worth the while.
So I want to thank everyone who has followed me on this journey and been there supporting me, and for all the people who helped me realize what my passion truly is. I can't wait to see where God leads me with this.